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Mar. 17th, 2006 | 11:44 pm
mood: tired tired
music: Dream Theater - Scenes From A Memory

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have medium extroversion.
You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."

Conscientiousness:

You have low conscientiousness.
Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously.
Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions.
Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done.

Agreeableness:

You have low agreeableness.
Your self interest comes first, and others come later, if at all.
In general, you feel that people are not to be trusted.
And you're skeptical that anyone else really feels differently.

Neuroticism:

You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

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Alone

Mar. 12th, 2006 | 11:03 pm
mood: irritated irritated
music: The Mars Volta - Televators

I've felt pretty much the same way for the past few months, and it irks me. Why can't I find someone that's like me? I can't find a single person, be it male or female *preferably female x 100* that shares the same beliefs as me, or even has the same sense of humor as me. I always feel alone, and it is starting to take it's toll. The worst part is, I can't figure out why. What did I do that I have to be by myself all the time? I don't eat anymore, I can rarely sleep. I'm pathetic. And I hope this doesn't seem to overly emo, because that's not my intention at all. Fuck it, I don't even care, I'm posting it so there!


Anyhoo, I hung out with some friends last night and I thoroughly enjoyed it. We lifted up my friend's CAR and made it look like he had a terrible parking job, it was so fricken hilarious. Ok, that's enough for now. Later.

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Interesting..

Mar. 8th, 2006 | 01:41 pm
mood: hopeful hopeful
music: Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb

Well, I've had an interesting few days. I haven't been to bed before 7am in the past three days. The sunrise is beautiful. I made a few new friends, who I've been going to breakfast at the diner with. Gabby talks a lot, but is incredibly funny, while Kristen is cute and funny and smart. I also hang out at night with these two new people, Leanne and Shaunna. I sort've have a thing for Shaunna, but seeing as how I'm pretty well useless, nothing will come of it. It depresses the shit out of me, but the hope still lingers. I hope something goes right.

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Me

Mar. 2nd, 2006 | 02:42 pm
mood: confused confused
music: Descent Soundtrack

I feel myself right now, alsmost as if I was going back to high school. I'm experimenting, yet again, with the ever elusive high of cough medicines. DXM. The bastard that stole my brain. But it's so, so.. I don't know how to explain it other than it's a terrible mistress that I just won't and yet don't want to leave. I'm feeling the oncoming effects of it, and I can do naught but smile. I take breaks from her, but I tend to go back. I'll comment some more maybe later on. I just felt the need to document this thought.

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Whaat.

Feb. 26th, 2006 | 03:00 pm
mood: lonely lonely
music: Eminem - When I'm Gone

Strangely enough, this fits me.


the Romantic
Test finished!
you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR.


"I am unique"



Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.



How to Get Along with Me



  • Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.

  • Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value
    myself.

  • Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.

  • Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy,
    I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.

  • Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!


What I Like About Being a Four


  • my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep
    level

  • my ability to establish warm connections with people

  • admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life

  • my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor

  • being unique and being seen as unique by others

  • having aesthetic sensibilities

  • being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me




What's Hard About Being a Four


  • experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair

  • feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved

  • feeling guilty when I disappoint people

  • feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me

  • expecting too much from myself and life

  • fearing being abandoned


  • obsessing over resentments

  • longing for what I don't have



Fours as Children Often


  • have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in
    original game
    s

  • are very sensitive

  • feel that they don't fit in

  • believe they are missing something that other people have


  • attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.

  • become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood

  • feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents'
    divorce)



Fours as Parents


  • help their children become who they really are

  • support their children's creativity and originality

  • are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings


  • are sometimes overly critical or overly protective

  • are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed



Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy

Discover the 9 Types of People

HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages




You liked the test? so please RATE it :-)



You are not completely happy with the result?!

You chose BY


Would you rather have chosen:

  • AY (EIGHT)
  • CY (SIX)
  • BX (NINE)
  • BZ (FIVE)



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    OMFG KITTENS

    Feb. 26th, 2006 | 04:48 am
    mood: Yawn. Yawn.
    music: Dredg - Bug Eyes

    I chose this background, regardless of the homosexuality of it, for the sole reason of when I was looking through them all, this one said "OMFG KITTENS". This totally appealed to my warped sense of humor, and I guess, well, you'll have to deal. It almost seems, for some straaange reason, that the only one who will read this is Katie, because I don't know anyone else with a LiveJournal. It'll be fun to get shit off my chest though, because I don't have to actually say it, and it doesn't matter to me if someone reads it. This'll all make sense to me, and it goes straight from my mind to this computer. It'll be rather confusing at times, so just bear with me. Don't get >:[ at me! Ok, well, it's 5am, I'm pretty tired. I'm going to close this glaring light of my computer, play some Dredg, and just pass out at like 6. I go back to school tomorrow, that's exciting. I'll wrap it up with one short statement. OMFG KITTENS. Thanks for your time. Haha it's like I just round about talked to Katie!


    Later.


    ( >:[ )
    hahahaha.



    EDIT!

    I am Rickets. Hear your bones go boing.
    Which Horrible Affliction are you?
    A Rum and Monkey disease.

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